Crazy Week Full Moon!!

Hey folks. This week has been a hard week for me. There has been stress and weirdness. First of all we had an earthquack.
Then I watched the first half of a documentary called Earthlings. It was so hard to watch. It was also very informative. Do you eat meat? Then you should watch this. Do you have pets? There were some statistics that absolutely shocked me. Like did you know 60,000 pets are uthanized everyday in shelters? Thats fucked people.
http://topdocumentaryfilms.com/earthlings/
I don’t know that I can ever eat meat again now. Not unless I’m sure that its not been...sorry I really don’t want to think about it! I’m so so so sooooo disgusted to find ouut that I- that I’ve been a part of this!! More and more I lose faith in the world. It’s worse than babylon. Please God!! I pray constantly for the strength to endure this knowledge!! Because the more I learn about what we have done to this world, the more that I feel that I don’t want to be a part of this. I want to stop this. I WANT TO STOP EVERYTHING! IF ONLY I COULD. I keep holding strong to the idea that I can.
We (our family) has taken the first steps to changing this world. We refuse now to shop in the grocery store when ever possible. We are choosing instead to shop at the farmers market, buying mostly local goods. Some weeks I buy all local, other weeks the only import stuff I buy is fruit cause lets face it there are no Canadian banana’s. By supporting local farmers I am making our local economy better.
I don’t understand how things that are imported cost less money that things from here. Think about it, price of transportation + price of labour etc etc and you know I think it’s cause the big corporations own all the grocery stores and boom you have the iron food curtain. It’s all bad and worse ther e for me now.
Today when I finnished work at ...the lab and offices I clean on the weekend I went directly to my other job which I thought I could do at 4. Turns out that it was open to 5. So as I was wasting time waiting to work when I couldn’t work (chuckle chuckle) there was an Indian family standing around watching their pet cat, who was harnassed, shit on the perfectly manicured lawn...I mean they were all four of them gathered around in a circle, dad leaning over elbows on his knee’s just intently watching fluffy poo. Then they watched the kitty scratch scratch scratch for a while. Huh.
Oh. Yeah they had the G8 G20 Summit thingy in Toronto and we were watching the burning of the police cars on the tv. People...I don’t really know how I feel about all of that. I do know that us little folk do need to realize that we the people are strong. But we can get so much more done by non violent actions than by violent actions. But I don’t know about that either right now. Cause I’d like to get violent in the name of Justice...
So yeah. At this point in my life I am just going to keep moving in the right direction. I’m trying to not bring any more plastic into the house. It’s freakin retardedly hard. Even when you say no thankyou people still want to force you to take the stupid plastic.
Did i mention that we are going chemical free!! Yay!! That is one area where we have had nothing but success!!
Anyways, it’s been a long day and last night i was up late with the kids. So blog ya later!!